i’ve heard of post-partum depression, but rarely about pre-partum. haaayyyy…. eversince i got pregnant, i become more depressed day by day. all i think about are negative thoughts. everybody seems to irritate me (except richard). as in parang i hate everybody surrounding me. especially the people i always see. sometimes i won’t eat with them. or talk to them. or i find fault in everything they say. i don’t really know if it’s because of some past issues with them or because of the preggy hormones but im beginning to hate myself for being like this. sometimes, i’m not even sorry. hay naku ewan.

anyways, tomorrow will be a different day. i should choose to be happy. this is not good for the baby i know. he/she might come out pouting (like mommy).